Failure

Do you ever feel like you lost inside your own body and mind?

It's a feeling you feel when you just simply don't trust yourself

with anything

And in my case

everything

The position I applied myself for

Oh the optimistic once I had, it even amazed myself

but I set my hopes too high to be pathetically let down

This event brought me to a hell depressing three days

Reminiscing another failure I had

or should I add the letter 's' to it?

The competition that running a few months back

Oh the optimistic once I had, it even amazed myself

Somebody close to me win it

And she didn't even have an optimist opinion as close as mine

Fuck

The test I had underwent a few days back

Oh the optimistic once I had, it even amazed myself

I didn't even get the result, close to what I wanted

Somebody close to me did

And she didn't even have an optimist opinion as close as mine

Double fuck

Call me lame, feeble, stupid, inadequate, or anything

I don't give a damn

I'm weak like this

and it's nobody's secret that everyone have their own vulnerable side

Sorry to everyone I've been lying to

is not that I'm scared with having nobody while you're gone (even writing it sounds weird and idiotic)

it's just that I'm not strong enough to face anything, yet

Failure might come and catches me while I'm doing things

and it sucks

Mood : Failed
Listen to : All-American Reject - The Wind Blows (Thomas Gold Remix)