Belief

I was just rolling my mouse over my document folders and I found something I wrote a long ago, it goes like this :

One day, I came across to a cogitation. I like to create and muse over philosophies, so a cogitation like this isn't a rare case for me.

What if all that we see, all that we touch, all that we hear, and all that we think, they are all only perception, a visible view through our little minds. Can you proof something exist? But not by the eyes or other human mechanics system.

Put it this way, some people have faith in God, some don't. They who believe insist that God is found in existence, even though it's in a mysterious way. The thought is embedded in their brains and it's a firm belief for them. As for them who believe in no God or have no faith towards Him, also known as atheists for some reasons, don't have this firm belief so they don't know or better yet, don't think that God is exist in any way.

From that paragraph I can conclude that thing that exists for us may not be the same for other and vice versa. So, can we really tell that we have two eyes? or maybe it's just a firm belief that planted on our narrow little minds. Maybe the truth is we don't have eyes at all, it's only a perceptible media for us to see the world and we thought that eyes really are existed. And how about human's shape? Is it really us? Does it ever cross your mind that maybe the body that we have is just something that never prevail in the first place? That we can create this body the way we want, over our imaginary, over our fictional aspiration. if we just could embed a firm belief on people's minds, a delusion to change our own image for the worlds to see.

Confused yet? Don't be because I will set another example to explain more about this cogitation.

Another example to take is, the second I type this words, I'm sitting on a chair. I believed that this chair is exist, right here. I believed that this chair is meant to be sat and I'm capable of sitting on it, and because that belief is embedded on my mind the result is there to see, I'm sitting on this chair. Maybe, if I don't believe this chair is here I wouldn't be sitting like now I do. Does this make any sense to you?

What are humans? What are colors?  What is blue? What is green? What are thoughts? What is sky? Do they really exist? Or is it just a delusion, lying to us for all these times. There are no facts, there are only opinions.

Does reality that we're undergoing right now is the 'real' reality? What if reality that we've been believed since we're born it's not the way it is. There is no right or wrong. There is only delusions, believed by so many people so that it named itself 'reality'.

This isn't a question to be mystified, nor a statement to be judged. 

I know well, very well, that this isn't something new to humans' minds. So, there's must be a reply, a retort, an answer, a 

respond or anything to this weird cogitation before, and for that, I'm gonna keep looking.

Mood : Believing

Listen to : Heavyweight - Infected Mushroom

Perfection

It doesn't exist.

Some people just say it for another term of being hideous.

I know this is a late respond to a once filthy word everybody use on the internet scene, but it's better late than never they said.

So look upon your myspace/facebook/livejournal/whatever friends connector you use, and see what kind of people using this kind of shit.

If that's the perfection, then I don't wanna be perfect no more.

Despite all those things I just said, being perfect is something everybody's longing for.

And I guess, I'm just the same stupid.

I know it's not real, nobody's perfect. But, what can I say? Sometimes I'm just doubting myself too much that it kills myself...

For the record, I always feel I'm the most incomplete being there is.

Such a retard thought, isn't it?

Mood : Low

Listen to : Lovely - Breathe Carolina

Shit

Do you think I'm arrogant?

Well, world doesn't speak for itself, do they? So I guess I'm just gonna wonder around for until... 

I guess it takes forever to figure that out.

Hmm I think I'm just gonna talk shit today so let my words flow for what they are and don't try to stop me people.

I ate a half cylinder of prigles, just a few minutes ago and I feel really full. (Do I even need to add "" sign on that word?)

Oh yeah I haven't told you yet that I've decided I'll become an anorexia for the short period of time.

Outer means more than inner and that's a fact nobody could deny.

That's the reason, well, mostly. (I can list things like I'm an obese and such but I won't)

I almost fall asleep the whole day and still I feel tired.

Something abnormal is happening.

Is not that I care about anyway, but still....

The grades are struggling and I don't know if I still could keep up with the whole curriculum or not, but I, honestly, feel like I'm just stupid like that and I don't think I will make it to the next round of school year.

I hate school for a better reason (Unlike anybody you could think of)

Didn't I sound really sad and pathetic nowadays?

Or did I always?

Mood : Fucked

Listen to : MGMT - Kids